Brandon

from Taboo Topics
May 22, 2020

KS: Brandon.

Caller: Hello.

KS: You called the other day on my business show, right?

Caller: Yeah, that was me.

KS: Are you calling about the topic?

Caller: Yeah, it’s about the intercultural or interracial relationship.

KS: Are you dating?

Caller: No, not right now.

KS: Aren’t you the guy that was living with you father?

Caller: Yeah.

KS: Have you ever had a relationship?

Caller: Yeah, I’ve been in a relationship but I had a specific question to you.

KS: Go ahead.

Caller: Well, one guy I used to watch on YouTube and also on BitChute was very strong in his beliefs that the races like black and white should not date because he felt like there was...

KS: What’s the question?

Caller: Well, do you think that black men and white women should be able to marry, date?

KS: What do you think?

Caller: Well, I personally I think that it’s you know if there is the love then yes but I’m realizing there’s a large, cultural...

KS: OK, and the reason I asked the question that way then why does it matter what I think or what that guy on BitChute thinks?

Caller: Well, I think that you want to discuss taboo topics.

KS: No, no, I asked you. I don’t want, see, you’re a guy that’s trying to find answers and you need to find answers for yourself. You spend a lot of time, hold on, listen to me. I know who you are. You’ve called into my show on other days outside that. You spend a lot of time on YouTube.

Caller: Yeah.

KS: You need to go spend time, and I told you. You live at home with your father. You’re the guy who’s working that unskilled jobs, menial labor.

Caller: Yeah.

KS: Why are you spending so much time online looking for answers for life that you don’t have?

Caller: Well, I mean I figure that the more understanding I have...

KS: No, it’s called “analysis paralysis.” You’re mentally masturbating because this is as close, see life happens outside, Brandon. You’re 27 years old. You shouldn’t be living at home with your father. There’s no way you should still be trying to get yourself together, working in the library, sandwich artist at Subway, or this or that. You’re lost. And you spend your time listening to a lot of content vs. doing some shit for yourself. Turn off the internet. Plug into life. You’re too broke to be listening to this much YouTube.

Caller: Yeah, I mean I feel like you’re right. At the same time...

KS: “I Feel...” Men don’t feel. We think and we know. This isn’t a debate, man.

Caller: OK, I was just, OK, I was just calling to talk about...

KS: Right, but what I’m saying you have no business... Did you hear what I said? You shouldn’t even be calling. You should be focusing on getting your shit together instead of worrying about what some guy on BitChute has to say about interracial dating then asking me what I think about it. And I said well, what do you think about it? All that should matter is what you think about it. Are you actively dating a white woman right now?

Caller: No, but...

KS: Then, listen, then it doesn’t matter. You’re wasting time on stuff that’s not here in your, right now life is not together. You’re just wasting time looking for issues and the biggest issue is you in the mirror.

Caller: I mean, I feel like I’m addressing, you know, I spend all day working so I mean what else are you saying?

KS: You spend all day working? How much did you make today?

Caller: Today I made $90. Yesterday I made a $100.

KS: $90? Listen, $90 and yesterday you made $100, OK. So that’s $500 a week at best, 5-day week and you live in New York City or New Jersey?

Caller: I actually live with my dad in Long Island and my mom lives in New York City.

KS: OK, you live in New York City. Long Island is one of the boroughs.

Caller: Kind of, yeah.

KS: Kind of? I lived in Manhattan.You live with your, listen. You made $500 a week. Can you afford an apartment?

Caller: At the moment?

KS: That’s all that matters is at the moment, sir.

Caller: I mean, OK, so how am I supposed to get from where you’re saying is a great ideal from where I am because I very much...

KS: Listen, first thing you do is you listen. You have no skills at 27 years old. That’s a problem that you caused. No one told you to not acquire skills in the 10 years since you... Did you did you drop out of high school?

Caller: No, I graduated.

KS: OK, you graduated high school. So what have you been doing in the nine years since you got out of high school?

Caller: Well, I went to SUNY Geneseo and SUNY Stony Brook and you know at various times I was doing well, at various times I did poorly and I failed out and I went kind of in a rebellious mode and I travelled down to Florida and then I came back home after a while repenting that sort of rebellion and then since then I’ve just been trying to build myself back up and you know, have been working really hard and trying to find...

KS: What do you mean working really hard? Working really hard doing what?

Caller: Well, I mean, comparatively I guess I’ve been working hard compared to what I was doing.

KS: Well, what you were doing was a loser.

Caller: Well, I was at the time I wouldn’t have defined myself as a loser.

KS: Well of course you wouldn’t define yourself as a loser, but that’s what the world would define you as, a loser, a guy who graduated from high school and dibbled and dabbled in college until he flunked out and then went on a monk mission from here to Florida hitchhiking. That’s what the world will call you: a loser. Twenty five years old, living at home. You’re a loser. That’s what the world says. That’s what the world says, bro, and you’re asking me, how do I get there? Well, the first thing you do is, the first thing you should do is leave out of your father’s house. You have no real pressure on yourself. Your father’s allowing you to be a loser. That’s why you can spend time...

Caller: Sure.

KS: Yeah, he is. That’s why you can spend time on his internet on his wifi listening to all these programs that you have no direct need for. You need a direct skill that can help you make more than $100 a damned day. That’s what you need. You need a skill. What are you qualified to do?

Caller: I mean, I have now gotten four... I know you were saying my gardening business, but I have four clients then I think I’m gonna have a lot more clients... and I think I’ll have the work to make some...

KS: So, gardening doing during Covid. OK, where did you go to learn to be a gardener?

Caller: Well, I when I was, I left that part out. But at one point before I went to Florida, I was living in Trinidad and I got a permaculture design certificate and that’s kind of like similar, but really it’s just...

KS: OK, and let’s be honest, dude, there’s not a lot of gardening work in New York City and Long Island or other. You aren’t making any money. And the only reason you can delude yourself like this is because you live with your daddy.

Caller: OK, but how can I find a place to live, you know, if I’m not making money?

KS: Well, you know what the real answer is, I should be talking to your father. I should be talking to your father and tell him: put your grown ass out. Because here’s how you do it: necessity breeds invention. How many hours did you work today?

Caller: I started at, well, I guess it doesn’t sound so good. Well, I started it at twelve and I finished at seven. But normally I start earlier I just didn’t have any work.

KS: OK, so you started at twelve and finished at seven. So you didn’t even put in a full eight hour day with your broke ass. And you should be putting in 16.

Caller: Yeah, I’ve never put in.

KS: So how many different... So when are you going to start listening to the fact that number one, you’re lazy, unskilled, unmotivated?

Caller: Well, I mean. I guess...

KS: You guess... Is that accurate or inaccurate? You put in a seven hour day. Do you have the kind... Do you make enough money to only work seven hours?

Caller: I mean...

KS: That’s a yes or no question, sir.

Caller: I mean, no, I don’t.

KS: Then why did you stop working at seven hours?

Caller: It’s manual, like gardening laborers.

KS: I don’t give a shit. Go get another job like the rest of us. I’ve had three or four jobs at one time. See, every time I ask you, there’s always a woe-is-me excuse. That’s cause your father is paying the freight on your ass. Because you don’t have to pay the rent, lights, phone, groceries or anything. He’s letting you stay there because he fears that if he lets you go out, his son is going to die ‘cause you’re not fit to make it in this world right now. That’s sad. And that’s on you. I’m not going to give you any excuses. There’s nothing wrong with you. You graduated from high school. You got everything that everybody else has except for a fucking backbone and some ambition... and you went through a rebellious phase. You know what you should have got as a rebellious phase? A fucking door locked in your face. Your rebellious ass should have either went to the military or be in a park somewhere, but there’s no way you should be back in your father’s house rebelling.

Caller: Well, I wouldn’t have been let back in if I was still rebelling. But, I mean, OK. I want to take as much responsibility as I can and that’s what I’ve been doing.

KS: Then then do it. Stop working seven hours a day. Get off of YouTube, stop watching BitChute, stop doing all this. Go get two, three, four, five jobs, whatever you need to do, move the fuck out, live in a car, live in a U-Haul somewhere, go get roommates, grow the fuck up, man. Move to a different state. Stop giving yourself so many excuses. Take... How about this, you ready for this? This is what I really think you need. You want the solution to your life? I’ll give it to you, in one sentence. You ready?

Caller: Yeah.

KS: Join the army.

Caller: I tried. I can’t.

KS: Why?

Caller: Because during my rebellious phase, I, you know.

KS: No. I don’t.

Caller: I have HIV, so I can’t. That’s why.

KS: Well, sorry to hear that, man. So now you’ve got that on you.

Caller: I know I need discipline and I can’t count on...

KS: Well, if you know it... But before you need discipline, you need income. Why are you not working twelve, sixteen hour days?

Caller: I guess I’m just... I don’t want to say I’m lazy, because that doesn’t feel right.

KS: Well, that’s what it is, bro. You don’t want to say it because that’s what it is. You called into my show on a completely different topic. So you, see your father should be doing this to you, but he fears for you. I don’t. I fear for you if you don’t do this. I fear for you if your father dies because you can’t afford to take care of yourself and they will let you be homeless with HIV. You can be out there with the rest of them. You’re wasting time.

Caller: Well, I’m getting a car on Monday. Not to say I’m... I don’t know if I’m just going to go live in a car, but I’m getting a car and that could help.

KS: How’s that gonna help?

Caller: Because. You know...

KS: Who’s getting you a car?

Caller: One of my one of my gardening clients who I worked with two days ago, the son... I’m getting like two referrals every month...

KS: Who is getting you a car?

Caller: One of my gardening client’s brother is giving me, I’m actually paying for a car by working and he’s going to give it to me and I’m going to work over the next few months.

KS: Alright, so can you afford the insurance, gas, and the maintenance on this car?

Caller: I plan to...

KS: Not plan to...

Caller: No, I’m telling you...

KS: All right, here’s the thing, dude. Listen. No, no, no. You don’t need an expensive a car. Mass transit is your friend. You’re irresponsible and lazy. And every time I ask you, somebody has to do something for you. Somebody has to give you a car. You’re almost, you’re closer to thirty than you are to twenty. Knock it off. I don’t care. Here’s what you do. You get up tomorrow morning and you put in applications at every fast food place in your neighborhood that you can walk to or ride a bus to. You go to every place that’s hiring and you put in applications. Stock boy, groceries, every place you see a legal Mexican go, you have your ass there too. You apply to everywhere because you have citizenship and then after you apply at every one of the businesses in your five mile, ten mile radius, you take your ass down to the day labor center and you stand out there with the rest of these illegal immigrants and you work for day labor or go to the Home Depot. You got too much pride to be this damn broke. You do whatever you have to do. That’s what men do, instead of somebody always having to do something for you. You want it to be easy. You want it to happen on your way. Well, how am I supposed to get there? Ain’t my job to figure out your life. All I know is this: you don’t make enough money to be working seven hours a day. That’s your fucking problem. In calling me up asking me about what some motherfucker on BitChute said about interracial dating and what I think is one of the most, is one of the craziest fucking things I can think of for somebody in your position. You’re deluded. Has nothing to do with your life. Has your father ever told you this?

Caller: Told me what?

KS: That you need to get your shit together.

Caller: He doesn’t have it together enough to tell me that.

KS: Excuse me, what did you just say?

Caller: My dad doesn’t have his stuff together at all, so he doesn’t have the awareness...

KS: Oh, OK. So the place you live in, who pays for it?

Caller: My mom. My dad, probably he’s about to lose this place if it was up to him. I’m just saying, it’s true.

KS: You live with your father.

Caller: Yeah, we, I live in my family house where I grew up, but my mom lives in Harlem and, you know, if it wasn’t for her bailing him out, you know, there’s property taxes and mortgages that were laid on that would probably just, it would have been game over.

KS: Are your mother and father married?

Caller: Yeah, they’re married but they’re not really together.

KS: I didn’t ask if they were together. What was the question?

Caller: Yes, they’re married.

KS: So, what’s hers is his.

Caller: Yeah. Mm-hm.

KS: So, the nerve of you to say he doesn’t have his shit together. He has a wife, you don’t. He has a wife that he picked well enough to allow his son, who’s a deadbeat to stay with him. And you’re judging him.

Caller: I’m just telling you what she tells me.

KS: Listen, I don’t give a fuck what she says to him. I’m telling you what I’m telling you. You judged your father. He doesn’t have his shit together. That’s not the real point. You don’t have your shit together. See, I ask questions because I read people for a living. And for you to come out of your mouth saying something about your father is way, way out of part. You don’t have any room to be judging anybody, dude. Zero. Your number one... that’s why I said at the beginning, you need to get off the internet, stop worrying about all this other stuff and get your shit together. But you actually said: my dad doesn’t have his stuff together so he can’t tell me anything. Really?

Caller: You asked me how like I didn’t have...

KS: I asked if he told you you need to get your shit together is what I asked you. What’d I tell you? Don’t talk over me, dude. You too broke to afford to pay a session so you don’t talk on me. I don’t know who the fuck you think you’re talking to. Do this shit with your dad, not me.

Caller: I’m sorry.

KS: I don’t give a fuck what your father’s situation is, your mother’s situation... I don’t care... what your situation is. You still responsible for yourself. All you got is a bunch of goddamn excuses. But you gonna stop calling my show with this bullshit. I’ll tell you that. I’ve told you what you need to do. Because if your father were to pass, if your mother were to pass, could you pay the rent on the place you live right now?

Caller: No.

KS: Then that’s all you need to be worried about. That’s the only fucking thing that needs to be on your mind, not how fucked up your HIV status is, not all the mistakes you made, not what your daddy did, not what your momma did. The fact that you can’t even pay for the roof over your goddamn head if one of these two people who are in the coronavirus situation in New York died. It’s the only thing that need to be coming out your mouth. That needs to be your only north star. You as a grown damn 27 year old man can’t even pay for a roof over your head and you got nerve to be calling in to YouTube shows? Listening to BitChute videos?

Caller: OK, sure. I...

KS: What? What you gonna say to that other than: you’re right?

Caller: That’s what I’m saying. I guess there’s a reason I’m calling you. I respect what you’re saying and...

KS: OK, you know how you show you’re respected? Go do what I said. Put in applications around you. Get your pride to the side and stop being so goddamn proud. Go get a job, go get as many jobs as you can get. Because you have no skills. Because you’re going to tell me you got a skill to do some yard work down in Jamaica somewhere. I told you when you called into the show, you need some sort of certification because you’re unskilled labor, dude. You’re unskilled labor. People swim the Rio Grande to do, and come do the same jobs. You’re a fruit picker. You have no skills. None. Zero. And you’re wasting time. You’re almost thirty years old with HIV. No skills. Who in the fuck is supposed to take care of an unskilled laborer in your situation?

Caller: No, I want to take it on myself.

KS: How? You only have, you have skills to make minimum wage. You can lie to yourself, but you make $90 a day, $100. That’s minimum, that’s really minimum wage in your area.

Caller: There was a guy who...

KS: Dude, there’s no talking. All right, man, I’m done. No, no, no, you still want to talk, you’ll be in a...

Caller: I was just talking...

KS: Nope. We’ve allowed young guys like this to be too lazy for too long and sometimes life’s gotta teach you. He lives in Long Island and it’s always excuses. Excuses, excuses, excuses. You’re broke. See, when I was... when we were younger we didn’t have the internet and all these distractions. We had to get out. There was no come stay in the house, get your shit together. Nope.

KS: Yeah, some people need to fall apart. Yeah, not sadly. And I understand... and before people may think that’s a little harsh, I’ve counseled, I was an alcohol and drug counselor. I’ve heard some of the, I’ve heard worse, far worse. He’s in denial. He has to hit his rock bottom. He’s looking for answers, but the answer is you are first, in order to get better you must admit you are powerless over alcohol or drugs. You got to admit. Then you gotta do you the steps.

KS: At what age do you finally get it? Still working on it. You keep on getting it. Yeah, I’ve had a hundred jobs. Yeah, that’s right, dude, I actually says one hundred job see, yeah ‘cause men where I come from, we work. We work. A man is what you do. That’s why. And all those hundred jobs means I can turn on the YouTube at any moment and be talking and be consistent. I’m never satisfied with just doing what I’m, just this. Because a man is supposed to get out there and make shit happen. Even if he has nothing, he’s supposed to make something. Mm-hm. Powers over your addiction. I don’t begrudge anybody who... Anyway.

KS: Let me round this back to the broadcast “taboo topics.” All our taboo topics, all our taboo issues... we tend to stand in our own way. And somebody asked: when did you get your stuff together? When I finally stopped being in my own way, started admitting that I didn’t know everything, that I could be wrong, that I was misunderstood, when I looked at my acceptance and abandonment issues, this issue, that issue, whatever, when I forgave myself, forgave people I needed to forgive, allow myself to make mistakes and not be so hard on myself, but demand the best for myself. Wash, rinse, repeat. Nobody gets out of this life without a bunch of mud on us and dents and dings. We’re all doing the best we can. But the problem is we gotta do the best but which as a man, you don’t get anybody saying... it’s not your fault, but it is your responsibility. I understand what the young man was saying and his mother and father care for him, but the world just looks at you as just a... So, and that’s a hard bitter pill to swallow, but swallow it you must. Swallow it you must.